Nothing like starting the new year with a reinvented dining room! Deb (Garden Party) and i had a blast doing this! :D Thanks Deb for your never ending creativity! :)
A New Season
Monday, January 2, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Love the Way You Smile
This is something I wrote last fall. October is always an especially dificult month, as I lost a child who would now be 25 years old. Yet as I wrote this, although my heart aches at times because I miss him, I sensed closure and peace, and hope because I know he is being held by His Father, and that we will see him again someday.
Peace to you this coming new year!
My Heavenly Father, <3 I'm glad you don't sleep
your tears are falling on my face, mixing with mine, you see my wounds runnin deep
You cry with me, holdin me, not lettin me fall, even when it's too steep,
and i freeze........waiting for you.................my heart races, so i rest.....waiting for you
i start to crawl, and the rocks cut, and tear at my skin, and i bleed, and i cry,
and i swear, and i sigh...........and i rest again....
sigh a huge breath, and i tell you and yell at you, that i don't understand, that you don't understand.......
the deep hurts, the way i miss the child who is in your arms, left this earth, and at that moment, it's not enough to know i'll see him again someday
strings wrapped every which way around my heart are tugging and squeezing. seem to get tighter
as i try to fight the fear that everyone in my life will walk away
At times it consumes me, and i forget You, that fact that you stay, that You are lonely without us
and my arms stay open, even though sometimes i fight to close everyone off, to close You off,
You keep them open, You take my hands and steady me <3
And You gently remind me that is what You do, and you tell me to show people, that is what You do
And you teach me to do the same, because that's where the life is, that's what life is
Even when I don't listen, You wait
So i get up, keep going, and i keep my arms open, because that is what You do. :)
Life is painful, Life is beautiful, and I am so grateful, so grateful
I can't do this without You <3 And i know that makes you smile <3
Because that is what you do <3
....too <3
Peace to you this coming new year!
My Heavenly Father, <3 I'm glad you don't sleep
your tears are falling on my face, mixing with mine, you see my wounds runnin deep
You cry with me, holdin me, not lettin me fall, even when it's too steep,
and i freeze........waiting for you.................my heart races, so i rest.....waiting for you
i start to crawl, and the rocks cut, and tear at my skin, and i bleed, and i cry,
and i swear, and i sigh...........and i rest again....
sigh a huge breath, and i tell you and yell at you, that i don't understand, that you don't understand.......
the deep hurts, the way i miss the child who is in your arms, left this earth, and at that moment, it's not enough to know i'll see him again someday
strings wrapped every which way around my heart are tugging and squeezing. seem to get tighter
as i try to fight the fear that everyone in my life will walk away
At times it consumes me, and i forget You, that fact that you stay, that You are lonely without us
and my arms stay open, even though sometimes i fight to close everyone off, to close You off,
You keep them open, You take my hands and steady me <3
And You gently remind me that is what You do, and you tell me to show people, that is what You do
And you teach me to do the same, because that's where the life is, that's what life is
Even when I don't listen, You wait
So i get up, keep going, and i keep my arms open, because that is what You do. :)
Life is painful, Life is beautiful, and I am so grateful, so grateful
I can't do this without You <3 And i know that makes you smile <3
Because that is what you do <3
....too <3
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